personal

Why did I pay to go to college?

May 25, 2021
personal, school

Post originally published March 22 of 2021, date above represents most recent edit The Nebraska Union at UNL, photo by ensign_beedrill, CC BY-SA 2.0, via Wikimedia Commons I am currently a student at the University of Nebraska - Lincoln, where I study Computer and Electrical Engineering as a dual major. I have a serious passion for both of these subjects, which is why I am so incredibly frustrated at how negative my experience at UNL has been, especially in the classes that directly relate to my major. ...

I'm Not a Digital Native, and Neither Are You

May 14, 2021
personal

The term digital native describes a young person who has grown up in the digital age, in close contact with computers, the Internet, and video game consoles, and later mobile phones, social media, and tablets. The term is often used to refer to millennials, Generation Z, and Generation Alpha; the latter two are sometimes described as distinct “neo-digital natives”, “true” digital natives, or “digital integrators”. ‘Digital Native’ on Wikipedia You know how every headline about Millennials or Gen Z is “Gen ___ has killed ___” and it makes everyone from those generations want collectively bang their heads into a desk? ...

Chains

March 12, 2021
personal

My name is Vega. I have to tell myself that a lot, reminding myself of who I am. I know that may sound weird, but, if it wen’t already obvious, it isn’t my legal name. (yet.) Despite my best efforts, my parents still call me by my ‘old’ name. I’m hesitant to call it a dead name, as I’m not trans. I don’t think it’s the same or that it’s fair to claim that it is. ...

Mirrors of Opal

March 2, 2021
personal

When I looked into the mirror this morning, I wasn’t sure who I was looking at. Is that me? Is that really what I look like now? Has this years long separation from reality caused me to not recognize my own face, or would it have happened anyway- a side effect of growing older. If you saw me, would you even recognize me? Or am I the ship of Theseus, digested by the carnivore that we call time, now fertilizer for someone you’ve never met? ...

xx80

September 27, 2020
personal

The year is 198x. # I stare at my amber terminal. Hexadecimal fills my screen and my mind has become lost in the flow of 6502 assembly, as I hand optimize the code flow. I’m interupted when I recieve a message from my friend, _Maverik, he’s excited about the ground breaking CGI in Tron. Nostalgia is a weird feeling. We can forget when things happened, and misttribute things to entirely different decades. ...

Anti Consumer

March 12, 2019
personal

As I walked to my car after class I could smell the ashes of a cigarette and hear the echos of a train scraping on its tracks. The cool foggy air held still beams of light. It looked like a scene from Blade runner, but I couldn’t help but feel like the Android’s of it’s inspiration, lusting after something to make me feel alive. The drive home was mentally taxing. The fog so dense that cars ahead seemed to be balls of light floating in the distance and keeping sight of the lines to stay in my lane took a constant effort. ...


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